Sunday, June 10, 2007
Today marks exactly one month till the baby's due date. Surprisingly, I didn't shit my pants when I woke up this morning. Nope. Instead I went to the gym where I walked on the treadmill and thought about stuff. Well, I really only thought about stuff in between commercials of Law and Order Special Victims Unit. There's no way I could get through an entire hour on a treadmill with just my thoughts and pain to entertain me. I also realize that Special Victims Unit is probably the last show on earth a person should be watching a month before his or her child is born, but what can I say? I like Ice T.
I thought about a lot of things this morning. I thought about my adoption, my family and friends, the battles with my compulsive nature, my years practicing TKD, the places I've lived, and things I've seen. I also thought about Allyson and her family and everything I know about them. I realize that's a lot to think about. Especially if you consider your standard commercial block is three to five minutes long. But the question that keeps coming up in my mind is what am I going to do if Corky Jr does not like Super Heroes?!? I don't know how I would cope with that...
When my friends and I were younger we used to gauge new kids that came around by their imaginations. If a kid couldn't pretend he was a super hero and meet or exceed our expectations(and we had pretty high fucking standards) then pretty much the kid was labeled as having a personality disorder, and not having a mind of his own. What happens if this is Corky Jr?
What happens if he would rather play with a Tonka truck than with a Superman action figure? These are the kinds of questions that plague me in between commercial breaks! What if he doesn't like to fish? What if he doesn't like Football?!? What if he's not a complete clone of me? Gasp! What if he doesn't like the log, How the fuck am I going to deal?!? I could really use a Xanax right now.
Okay...I just breathed into a brown paper bag. I'm OK now. I guess no matter what I'm going to love him, but those are some really scary thoughts up there.
Anyway, everything is pretty much in order around here. Even Corky Jr's first costume (special thanks to Erika for supplying the paint and the canvass) hand painted by yours truly is ready to go. I need more action figures for the wall, and I need more wall for the wall, but that stuff will come in time.